It is amazing how we can be transformed by the love of God instantly- either by an amazing encounter with Him, the love and support of other believers or a slow, difficult and thick hike up a hill that has a surprising view and sense of relief at the top.  And then….it all goes down hill in one second~ Or at least it seems to at times.

What is it with the short term memory loss syndrome? In the wink of an eye my “transformation” goes from peace and love to fear, to hurt feelings, to evil thoughts, to ‘insert here’. What the heck?! I want it back!!

The book of John has an interesting statement from Jesus. (Well, one of many OBVIOUSLY but this is the one that spoke to me regarding transformation and my human condition today) .

“Because of the miracles he did in Jerusalem at the Passover celebration, many people were convinced that he was indeed the Messiah. But Jesus didn’t trust them, for he knew mankind to the core. No one needed to tell him how changeable human nature is!”

OK! There is it?  We fail…but He is with us regardless~ (I think teenagers are the most affected by this…just sayin’) Or maybe it’s the parents of teenagers? Yes, I have one of those. I love her. She drives my transformation out the window often lately. 😉 Or is it me?

This transformation, MY transformation needs daily, timely reminders. My capacity to sin, to take the ugly road is always so near. My prayer groups and close friends, my sister, my mom, and my husband are such a HUGE part of my reminders.  Their love, prayer and most of all accountability is a reminder that I am NOT alone and this is super awesome. But when I do take the ugly road I often wonder how much is me or how much is the enemy? I KNOW I am pretty self-centered. I try not to be but it really takes a beating down and my submission  to the bad things that happen in order for me to actually be free of that: of My-self.

This idea might sound crazy for this “me me” world, but it makes SO MUCH SENSE once I get to experience the freedom Christ offers when I step aside and let Him rule. For his purposes. For his love.
The relief of stepping aside and knowing that I am a part of something BIGGER. God’s plan. Yes, I want to be used for His plan.

I’d rather serve others than me, accept their faults as similar to mine, cry out in victory for a change of mood, stop the gossip and MOVE ASIDE. In faith and TRUST my perspective and my heart , by His spirit, are lifted to a supernatural level that only Christ can provide. This I know, for on my own I can.not.change.nor.transform.

It is quite simple really ~ puts a smile on my face. The peace that surpasses all understanding. I’m ready for the dishes and the laundry and the reports at work and the lovely teenager. Until #BOOM! back to the reminder board. Pray. For. Us. Lord.

3 Replies to “Transformers~”

  1. This is a daily struggle for me. I can go from feeling peace, and then BOOM, all twisted up in knots, worse than I was before. It’s like wash and repeat, it happens multiple times a day. Hate it, but at least…we’re trying. 🙂

  2. I love that song you played for us at last years Women’s Retreat. “Lord I need you ohhhh I need YOU….every hour I need you…my one defense….my righteousness….oh God how I need You”. I play that CD in my car and it’s a wonderful reminder because YOU.ARE.RIGHT – We are weak little creatures with the SHORTEST MEMORIES! B.T.W. I like how you write with the periods between every word. Really animates the blog 🙂 It’s my life’s meditation training!!!! I’m pretty strong….but if I stop exercising those holy muscles for a few hours …ooohhhhh….I can start feeling la lonjita….and I’m going for that donut….LOL!!! What am I talking about? night night. love you!

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